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Well, I read everyone's comments. I don't need to introudce myself. Glad that was decided for me. I laid awake for hours trying to come up with 56 words about myself. I made lists - I could have 14 words each in 4 columns. 14 nouns, verbs, adjectives........Or a paragprah of exactly 56 words. So I lost a lot of sleep over that one!
Sam commented about his not getting a writing gene. You are a great writer; your sense of humor makes your writing. I'm not that great of a writer nor that intelligent. They say the more intelligent the writer is the more metphors and similes they can use. That's not me. I can recognize a great simile but can't think of them myself very often.
Today was an unusual Sunday in that your Dad and I didn't go to church. We seldom miss, but for some reason we were both tired. Yesterday I dragged him to a wedding and reception and so we didn't get much done at home. And so we thought we'd get some things done today and have a chance to sleep inand just enjoy each other's company. But it was rainy. So we just stayed home all day. We also had Valerie and she decided to wake up early and so I got up and rocked her for about an hour.
I've been struggling with guilt trips or anxiety I get often over my teaching. I feel quite unsettled about continuing. I am more and more just getting through the days and wishing the year was over. The students I have this year are not very 'exceptional', in fact I think they lack motication and imagination compared to other students and I'm just not connecting with them very well. Yet, the harder I work, the more of my personal time it takes and I have come to realize I don't want my teaching to be my whole life. I think I've lost touch with many people and activities because of being tied down with school work. Yet I do know many good teachers who don't have that problem. So give me some suggestions! I often feel my mind racing with things I'd like to do, ideas, interests. It's all like the puddle of socks I often have beside my bed. I just need to bend over, pick them up and sort them. It seems so simple. In the past I have experienced that when there is something different I should be doing with my life, God makes it very clear to me and a door opens. I gather I'm in one of those 'waiting' modes. Trying to sense if there is something else I should be doing. I'm not sure if I should be knocking on some doors. I do know that we are to do the very best in any given situation and that if we have faith and do our best, God will show us the next step. Trust in the Lord with all your heart - lean not on your own understanding, In all your ways acknowledge him and HE WILL direct your paths. So I'm listening to hearand right now the clock strikes 11:00 and I know I can't teach well if I don't get to bed. Goodnight